The other day a friend of my spoke to me about her life plans, you know marriage, parenthood and career etc etc. Long story short, she was having "mid....something" crisis. Mainly she was worried about not being able to find a good mate who is right for her, getting married and ultimately having children of her own.
Then it got me to think about my own plans. To be honest I used to believe in the same thing as my friend (except I would have a wife instead of a husband of course). I used to believe that if two people were truly loved one another, that nothing else would matter.
To be blunt, maybe this is on me but I feel like I've yet to be in a relationship where I feel that the girl I am with felt the same way that I do for her.
Officially up until last summer I was in a relationship with this girl that I "absolutely adore". The whole experience was surreal, she was the first that I can say I really tried with. We were together for almost 2 years, and it was probably the happiest/challenging 2 years of my life.
Neither of us really knew what a relationship between us would mean. "Where will this lead us?" "Will we fall in love?" "What if things don't work out?". For me she meant "a lot", she meant warm fuzzy feeling in stomach, she meant that I was miserable when we were apart and happy when we were together. I wanted to be everything that I could for her. I wanted to finish school get a respectable job with good money so one day maybe she'll see that I will be a suitable mate for her. That she'll see me more than just the boyfriend type and that she can see herself spending the rest of her life with me. I won't front I honestly had thought about it a little bit.
But since then some things have happened and we drifted apart a little bit (no pun intended). It's true, my feelings for her has changed, instead of thinking that she may be the one for me I'd often think about whether I will ever find someone else, whom I will feel the same way that I felt for her.
To this day I still see her as more than a friend (maybe even more than a friend). I would often tell myself to ease up and let go. I don't want to be stuck in the middle of something or worst be in her way. It's bad enough that one of us can't let go or move on than have both of us dwell on what could have been.
So when she told me about how she was worried about her future, whether she will find someone whom she can spend the rest of her life with.
I looked at her and told her that everything was going to be alright, that she was going to find "someone" one day who will love her to the fullest and he will make all of her dreams come true.
It's funny sometimes when life throws these curve ball moments at you.
Then it got me to think about my own plans. To be honest I used to believe in the same thing as my friend (except I would have a wife instead of a husband of course). I used to believe that if two people were truly loved one another, that nothing else would matter.
To be blunt, maybe this is on me but I feel like I've yet to be in a relationship where I feel that the girl I am with felt the same way that I do for her.
Officially up until last summer I was in a relationship with this girl that I "absolutely adore". The whole experience was surreal, she was the first that I can say I really tried with. We were together for almost 2 years, and it was probably the happiest/challenging 2 years of my life.
Neither of us really knew what a relationship between us would mean. "Where will this lead us?" "Will we fall in love?" "What if things don't work out?". For me she meant "a lot", she meant warm fuzzy feeling in stomach, she meant that I was miserable when we were apart and happy when we were together. I wanted to be everything that I could for her. I wanted to finish school get a respectable job with good money so one day maybe she'll see that I will be a suitable mate for her. That she'll see me more than just the boyfriend type and that she can see herself spending the rest of her life with me. I won't front I honestly had thought about it a little bit.
But since then some things have happened and we drifted apart a little bit (no pun intended). It's true, my feelings for her has changed, instead of thinking that she may be the one for me I'd often think about whether I will ever find someone else, whom I will feel the same way that I felt for her.
To this day I still see her as more than a friend (maybe even more than a friend). I would often tell myself to ease up and let go. I don't want to be stuck in the middle of something or worst be in her way. It's bad enough that one of us can't let go or move on than have both of us dwell on what could have been.
So when she told me about how she was worried about her future, whether she will find someone whom she can spend the rest of her life with.
I looked at her and told her that everything was going to be alright, that she was going to find "someone" one day who will love her to the fullest and he will make all of her dreams come true.
It's funny sometimes when life throws these curve ball moments at you.
You think
I'm so full of it , full of it
But I think I'm just fed up baby
You think I can be so arrogant, Arrogant
But I'm just tryna get keep my head up Baby
You think I procrastinate baby
But I think I'm taking my time
You think you need to leave
But I think I disagree but
If you believe you'll do best without me
I'll let it go girl, It's over
But before we say good bye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go girl, It's over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out
Yeah
I think you're so full of it, full of it
You just don't know when to let up Baby
I think you're so arrogant, arrogant
that you think you're so much better baby
That I think It ain't healthy for me to judge you by your flaws & that's why I
know I could criticize , but I put that aside
To focus on you & I
but If you believe you'll do best without me
Then I'll let it go boy, It's over
But before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll let it go boy, it's over
But I have no doubt
We can work it out
Yeah
Now if you wanna go
Baby then I'll let you go
& even though I'm tryna hold on
I can't if you don't
now if you leave me, you're gonna miss me
& I'm not saying that Ill be here waiting
Since we here right now (instead of just walking out)
Lets work to reach the point that I know we can be
But if you believe, You'll do best without me
I'll let you go
It's over
but before we say
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
I'll Let it go, its over
I have no doubt
we can work it out
If you believe, you'll do best without me
I'll let it go girl, it's over
Before we say goodbye
Let's give it a try
If you leave, then baby I'll leave
1 Comments:
Hang in there bud, things always work out in weird ways. Maybe the "ideal" future isn't what you want in the future, your mind will always change at any given age.
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